My son was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma in June 2004. Since that day I have emailed updates, kept a Caringbridge site, sent text messages and updated Facebook, all in an attempt to keep our prayer warriors in the loop. For 9 years I shared my heart with others. Sometimes on a daily basis depending on where we were in treatment or what the needs of our family were. When Xander passed away on August 22, 2013 it came to a halt. I just haven't been sure how to keep Xander's story going. I'm not sure what happens from this point on. I don't want to stop sharing my heart. I don't want Xander's story to end. So here I am nearly 3 months since Xander went to be with Jesus. I'm uncertain of how this will work, but I'm ready to share. I want to allow others to walk this journey of grief with me, with my family. What I prayed would never take place did, Xander is no longer on this earth. It doesn't seem real, but it is. Each day I wish it were different. Each day I know I can make it because Jesus lives. I can face uncertain days because He lives. All fear is gone because He lives. Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.